Today is my last day at L school. I’m relieved! The kids are all amazing. The teachers are, too. Except for this new one and then the principal. The AP is wonderful.
I have learned some things in my 6 days here. Others have been reinforced. You have to be prepared! Planning has t be done and you have to study those plans so you are prepared. Not being prepared will ruin the entire day or even week if you get behind.
I also learned that I have to stand up for myself even more if I don’t want to be stepped on. That is basically what heppened to me here. The principal took advantage of my naivete. I tried to put a stop to it, but my inexperience as well as fear of looking bad and not being hired kept me from really, truly standing up and doing something for myself.
I’m also learning how to do some discipline. I have my own ways of doing things but its also good to learn new ways of doing things. Since my way might not work with all students. I think I’m also upset at the situation because it’s hard to start rules and what not when you’re starting a month into the school year. In addition to that – I was/am just a sub. It’s not in my job description to do any of the things I did. It pisses me off.
Another thing that totally has annoyed me to no end these past two days? This asshole. I try to help him and he will NOT take it. Forthe writing board? We had some awesome art work and persuasive letters (what they are studying now) and he shoved that off completely. That not only pisses me off because of the work I put into it, but the work the kids put into them. He didn’t even aknowledge them! I’m sure part of it has to do with him coming in and taking what should have been mine. I resent him for who he is. But his attitute towards me confirms my feelings.
One things that you might not know about me is that I’m OCD when it comes to things becing neat and organized. That includes writing. This guy is messy (which makes sense since he is a guy), but goodness! He put up a class jobs poster and colored boxes –> theya re all different sizes! and not purposefully!! It just looks unprofessional! He is self-observed and I get the feeling he things its his way or the highway. Oh, by the way? He’s in this 5th year of teaching. Mr. Big Shot is a fucking rookie! Oh, and I have to get personal! He’s not 40 yet and he’s completely gray. Not even salt-n-pepper!
So I’m sitting to the side of the room while he teaches. They are paying me $173.04 today to take over for 2 hours. At recess I’m going to go to the bookfair and look for an interesting book I could buy and entertain myself with after lunch. I have the Halloween books in my car, too. Right now, though? I’m so fucking bored!
I really don’t know why I’m here. How lame to sit and do nothing for an entire day! I’m going to ask the teacher next door if she needs anything grtaded or whatever. Something to entertain me. I did stop at the book fair, but without buying anything – but I saw two kids books I am going to buy.
….Later….
I ended up helping the teacher next door to somethign the time that A-Hole had to go elsewhere. They actually had another sub come in to cover A-Hole. A boring day got even worse! It’s 12:30 now. 2 hours until it’s time to go. He set aside time to do PE. Umm, I’m not oging outside in this heat.